the last burnt sienna crayon

in the field of medical ethics, can i really be in such a complete minority? and does that actually indicate that i’m as wrong as everyone else here seems to think i am? for, when everyone else is actually more qualified than me, do i have a right to differ so strongly in opinion, when it affects more people than just me? but if i do what everyone else is wanting me to do and i don’t feel that it is really the right thing to do, then am i wrong to do it because i’ve not followed my strong gut feelings, or am i right to do it because i’ve followed the opinion of the more qualified majority?

when in the end, it’s not really my decision anyway, i just have to come to a decision to put to the person making the decision which may or may not affect his decision.

i choose ice cream.

… that i so often find myself feeling that i’m the only person who demands integrity from others anymore? that i’m always branded as unreasonable and difficult because i refuse to allow others to walk over me and take advantage and when someone blows it i’m not quick to give them the chance again? that i always feel like i’m on my own in any disagreement or argument? and that i actually care about all of that?